Monday, June 26, 2006

a long time later.....



okay, so ive been avoiding the blog....but im here now, lots of stuff going on, im feeling much better than i did in the last post....it has been quite a while...we have a new critter in our house her name is hana she is a puppy with a personality...she is the bestest...
right now she is sleeping peacefully at my feet, dreaming of eating rocks shoes, and running after sheep i feel sure....
next week is vacation week, and way over due...hahaha...we dont have any plans, maybe some camping, some boating, lots of house cleaning..and maybe just maybe we'll finally finish that pantry....argghhh...
so much is going on with work, i dont even have time to write about it...
we have started going to a new fellowship in hartsville, and that has been wonderful...we are going to be on sabatical for the next 4 weeks, and im really sad, im excited about going back to sandhurst where our family is, but im gonna miss the freedom that is very real at the hcf....it is all yeshua....and bill always brings very pertinant messages...like he was reading my mind all week, and decided he needed to have a word with me in front of lots of other people...hahahaha...no kidding...every time it happens that way...like this sunday he spoke on rest, and newness....hello, that is all ive been able to think about for 3 weeks now, how i need to get over things that happened 10 years ago, and seek freshness, i need to trust that the almighty can take me to even better places in his own strength, not mine...i need to let go of what was, and stop striving to gte that back, i need look forward to what is gonna happen today, right in front of me...arghhhh....it sounds so simple, and i know it is, but my conections are severed, all of the wires that connect the brain and the heart are completely wasted from years of over pressure...trying trying trying...
i got to sit with sweet alex tonight on her front porch...i love her rawness, her ability to look you straight in the face, and call it like she sees it....she is so very aware of her brokeness, and doesnt mind poking at it with a stick to get to the bottom of it...i pray for her healing....that all of those wounds will turn to fresh skin again....she is so wonderful...
ok, gotta go to bed...way too late, and im dozing as i write...ill be back..

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