Wednesday, November 29, 2006

im starting to feel again.

i just realised the other day that im starting to feel a bit more like myself after 3 months of seditives...im not normally one to take meds, but in this case, i realy needed to do something..i have been a bump on a log for weeks now, but i feel as though i an seeing a light at the end of this tunnel....im still gonna be on meds for a few more months, but my body seems to be adjusting to them now....whew...i still look like ive been smoking pot all day...(dry red eyes) and i drink more water than a hippo, but there is nothing wrong with a super dose of high quality h2o everyday. i drove out to hartsville and stayed a while which is something i havent had the courage or the gumption to do in a while, and today im meeting up with a friend for lunch...so even with the cold weather nipping at my heels, and 2 little pink pills everyday telling me i need to take a nap, im feeling like life is making a re-entrance...

thanksgiving was nice and peaceful this year....out to the farm for a taste of the country bumkinness that is the martin family, and then a drive out to dillon for a short visit at havens...poor lille has a had mean stomach virus over the holiday, and a resp. infection to boot...poor miss....she is doing much better now, and she is back to her normal crazyness....

and for jenny, i just got off the phone with you, and im lookign forward to ravioli, here is my blog...hahahahaha...love you chicky mama...

ok, im off to have lunch with the biggest grinner in the world...

bec.

Monday, November 20, 2006

simply fall....

its getting chilly outside...i went to the grocery today, and got the first rounds of hot chocolate....i think lilli is more excited than me..

i miss friends, i dream in warm colors, and i hope. life right now is a sleepy season....

i am quiet, i am thinking, i am thankfull...
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There are names across the sea, only now I do believe
Sometimes, with the window closed, she'll sit and think of me
But she'll mend his tattered clothes and they'll kiss as if they know
A baby sleeps in all our bones, so scared to be alone

endless numbered days.
iron and wine.

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